Who you used to be is of no consequence to who you are right now.
You have made mistakes. You have done things you knew were wrong at the time you did them. You have said things that were totally out of line and you knew that when you said them. You have thought harsh thoughts about people who have done nothing but love and support you. And none of that matters right now.
Right now you are the person who knows better. So go ahead and commit to do better. Your decision right now determines what happens next. The things that have passed are in the past, so let them go. Truly, release them and tell them they no longer have any authority or power over who you are this moment. Because they don't - unless you give them the power to do so.
Every moment you take a new breath is a new opportunity to do something different. So if you don't like where you are or what you're doing, you can make a decision to do something else right this moment.
Do not allow people to keep you in a bad place and try to remind you of where you used to be or what you used to say or where you used to go. The past stuff is used. That is why it's called "used to". You are not used up. You are brand new. So act like it and think like it and talk like it and BE about it!
You were beautifully and wonderfully made. That means no matter what dirt people dig up on you, every moment you have the opportunity to go and wash it off and start anew. When other people try to drag you down, don't get mad at them. They only want to bring you where they are because they do not know how to get out of the pit on their own.
Show them. They will watch you, they will learn from you, and then they will have a decision to make themselves. You cannot make them, but you can be there encouraging them along the way.
Eclipse the fear and rise up!